One comment got me thinking about whether or not I should just be happy with the body God gave me....
I am thankful for the body God gave me. Realizing this makes this "skinny girl" journey even tougher. See, God gave me this body, and I have used it to glorify him through acts of service... occasionally. Occasionally should not be my goal in how often I give God the glory. I took this perfect, in HIS image body, and I filled it with ice cream, pizza, cookies and cakes, cheese covered lasagnas and creamy coffee drinks. I took His perfect gift and turned it into a mess! I have been a glutton for food and the body that He created turned into my revised addition.... it was perfect the way He planned, it didn't need my revisions! My negative body image stands in the way of me witnessing for the Kingdom, because I simply don't want people seeing me! Now we are talking sin.. I mean, come on!
I don't much like being serious, sarcasm runs in my blood. But sin is serious stuff! Sin, sin, sin.. and weight loss? Yes, because I sin everyday... when the thoughts of what I am eating, working out, spending time on the scale, reading articles on weight loss, trying new diets, beating myself up for eating that cookie... when all of those things consume my mind MORE than God does, what is really coming first in my life? God? Or diets? Whew, thats are hard pill to swallow to acknowledge that maybe, just MAYBE I am spending more time consumed with this skinny-wanna-be thing than I spend with God!
So now I am a food glutton and "dieting', although I hate it, is my idol. So we are no longer just on a weight loss journey... we are now venturing into the sin loss+weight loss territory! WHOA! Which means I have to accomplish my goal of being healthy on the outside, but I have to add being healthy on the inside too (spiritually speaking, though I am sure my organs will be doing the happy dance also!)
1 Corinthians 6: 19 says: “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought with a price. Therefore honor God with your body.”
Honor God with my body? If my body (or the way I have let it become) is causing me to sin (the gluttony & idol stuff) then I am obviously not using it for the purpose it was created for, am I? Ouch, truth hurts!
Think for a second what you would build if someone told you to to prepare a temple for the Holy Spirit.... I can't even phantom how amazing I would want that temple to be!! My temple, however, is not so impressive & the Holy Spirit resides there anyway! Thank God for grace, because my temple is unworthy of Him and He lives in me anyway!
Now its time for me to take a long look in the mirror, and try to see past the stuff I dislike on the outside and glimpse that person that God created me to be!
Enough serious talk... I am going to go let Jillian Michaels kick my butt. She scares me into submission through a DVD, I never want to meet her in person!! But my love/hate relationship with Jillian can wait for another day!
Hugs, kisses and skinny dreams (inside & out)
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